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Our Reconciliation with the Catholic Church

Jeff and Lois Heron
August 3, 2015 6 Comments

Early years

My (Jeff) parents provided a loving home for my four siblings and for me. We grew up on a small, working horse farm in Michigan’s thumb area. Our blue-collar household was characterized by a healthy work ethic, polite manners, and biblical morality.

During my latter teen years, I benefited from a relationship with a dynamic pastor who took a positive interest in me. Consistent church attendance, positive peers, pastoral discipleship, and (I’m certain) the prayers of many added to my spiritual formation.

As a college freshman, I decided to major in pre-dentistry studies. But as I commuted between my parents’ home and campus that year, I realized that a career in dentistry was my choice. My new found growth in God’s grace began to challenge me to consider not just what I wanted to do, but what might God have designed for me as it pertained to vocation. I sensed that God wanted me to pursue a vocation in pastoral ministry.

I (Lois) was born in the late 1950s, the third of four children, to missionary parents. My early memories of life in South Africa are a spiritual and emotional amalgam of wonder and delight, as well as fear, darkness, and doubt. The prevailing winds of my childhood always carried with them the uncertainty of my mother’s health. The child-like understanding of the desolation chronic illness can cause dogged me with feelings of depression and insecurity. But I also had an unshakable determination — call it childlike denial — to see past the insecurities of my life and search for firm ground on which I could stand.

The shifting sands in early ministry years

We met at one of our denomination’s colleges and entered the pastorate during our college years by serving a small congregation near the college we attended. We also welcomed the first of our three children. Seminary soon followed, and then we were off and running in pastoral ministry, serving three more Wesleyan churches in Michigan, Arizona, and finally South Dakota, in our 34 years of Protestant ministry.

Little did we know when we entered the ministry after seminary training that we were taking a front row seat to witness the dissension that can accompany division which had begun to manifest centuries earlier in the Church. As evangelical and fundamental movements gained influence in politics and entertainment in the late 1970s to 1990s, churches seemed to take on more of a Christian  country club mentality. We both started to question some of the bulimic fascinations with trends and methods for growing a church. The sense of spiritual starvation that was surrounding us began to draw our own spirits toward a search for the sacred wisdom and understanding provided for anyone who inclined their ears to the words of Scripture.

Our desires to shepherd and care for the members of the churches we served were swallowed up by the sad effects of Protestantism — dissension, division, and discord. Furthermore, ours was not a unique experience — it was normal in many denominations to hear more about church divisions than anything else. Questions settled into our spirits: Where is a firm foundation of authority? What is the purpose of the Church? What is worship? Is there nothing sacred anymore?

Consumer-driven worship

Beginning in the early 2000s, a festering frustration settled in on us regarding the evangelical Protestant attitude toward worship, which could not be ignored if we were going to maintain our personal and spiritual integrity. The focus of attention was continually heightening on what a pastoral team could “make” happen on Sunday mornings and during the week that would appeal to the culture. Times of worship had to be slick, relevant, marketable, experiential, pleasing to all generations, and entertaining. What had we come to? The consumer-driven, man-centered notions of “church” and worship in the evangelical Protestant movement drove us to the margins of our endurance. Our desire to remain in pastoral ministry was swallowed up by what we were witnessing around us.

The longing for worship that was saturated with the spoken Word of God increasingly occupied our minds in our last assignment of formal ministry. We hungered for worship through thanksgiving and adoration of God’s saving work through Jesus Christ. We were starved for authentic worship of the Triune God. I (Jeff) had no idea that I would eventually find biblically-ordered worship in the Catholic Mass; however, the spiritual reading that consoled and challenged me was leading me further back into history, into my eventual consideration of the ancient Church.

The church we served was mired in dissension. I (Lois) was physically and emotionally undone by the strain of ministry, mostly by how it was affecting Jeff. My husband’s spirit — loyal and pastoral — began to diminish through a litany of demeaning circumstances in our service to the church. It was slowly pressing him toward the deconstruction of everything he believed about himself, his abilities and gifts, and his call. His devout faith in God and his commitment to daily immersion in prayer and Scripture reading along with spiritual reading served as his only source of spiritual refreshment and renewal. The evidence of the authority of the faith still present in the Catholic Church and the writings of early Church Fathers began to draw his spirit, so much so that he quietly began considering his perspective on the Catholic Church. He was finding answers to the questions we both had about the purpose of worship in the authority and Sacred Tradition of the Church. And it was the secure authority of the Faith still intact in the Catholic Church that eventually drew him toward the Catholic Church after we resigned from Protestant ministry.

The example of our children

Our adult children’s support of us in our journey out of Protestant ministry was invaluable, because the path was rocky for much of our last twelve years in service to the church. We respect each of our three children (and spouses), admire their faith, and take note of their commitment to God. As our children matured in their faith they often encouraged us as we witnessed their determination to live God-honoring lives by raising their families according to biblical values. Our journey toward the Catholic Church included deep pain and loss; therefore, our steps were halting and often unsteady, yet they were steps nonetheless. Our three children and their spouses’ growing faith helped to propel us forward in our own journey into the Catholic Church.

Two of our children became Catholic after being drawn by her historical authenticity and the integrity present in the authority of her Sacred Tradition. When we would visit their families and worship with them, we were compelled by the sacred reverence of the worship of Almighty God. There was a profound sense of rest and peace in the worship that drew our spirits deeper into our association with the Catholic Church.

I (Lois) was reading a book which helped me discover more about meditation and prayer. But, what astounded me were the rich quotes of people I had never heard about! The profound faith of writers such as St. Clement of Rome, St. Catherine of Siena, St. Bonaventure, St. Therese of Lisieux, and St. John of the Cross reached into my life and drew me back into the richness of the Sacred Tradition of the Catholic Church. And who was John Henry Cardinal Newman?! Why had I never heard or sung the stirring hymn, Lead, Kindly Light? It wasn’t long before I was devouring every book I could get my hands on about the Apostolic Fathers, early Church Fathers, and saints of the Church.

Gaining perspective

In October of 2012, we pulled back from what we were mired in by resigning from Protestant ministry — to remove ourselves from what had become a toxic environment. In the words of that great philosopher Popeye: “That’s all I can stands! I can’t stands it no more!” Come what may, we could no longer stand by and support what was happening all around us in the Protestant movement. Standing at a crossroad, our resignation caused us to confront many emotions. We decided to face the “whys?” of our years in ministry and allow God to answer them in His good time. That required solitude and a deliberate stepping away from everything familiar, so that we could respond in quiet obedience to God’s desire for us.

The immediate sense of freedom from the disillusionment that had barnacled onto our lives was liberating. We were exhausted emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Our souls cried out for attention and rest. Peace had been pushed to the margins of our lives for so long as we tried to keep our heads above the tide of discontent and despair. The rest and peace of God returned. It was uncanny how light our lives had become — we had forgotten what true peace felt like. (We were often told there was a visual difference in both of us.)

Searching for biblically ordained worship

We knew if we were going to be faithful to Christ, we were going to have to be faithful to His Bride — His Church. Where would we worship together now that we had left the ministry? We knew we hungered and thirsted for biblically ordained worship and the stability of a Church that held firm the teachings of Christ and the Traditions of the Faith. Where would we find that integrity? Our minds and spirits were determined to rightly order our loyalty and trust in a true and reliable authority to which we could offer up our lives. We had some “shopping” to do. There are plenty of evangelical and mainline Protestant churches to choose from! “Shop ‘til you drop” took on a new meaning one Sunday after yet another visit to another church.

During our examination, we discovered that our niggling doubts really settled around the persisting questions: Why does division in the Protestant movement still prevail after 500 years? And why does the Catholic Church remain intact after 2,000 years? The very oldest Protestant denominations date back to the sixteenth-century Reformation, yet they themselves have fractured so many times in the 500 years since the Reformation that they have ceased to have a strong identity with the founders of their denominations. Our own denominational movement was birthed out of Anglicanism, which in several theological respects shares similar roots with the Catholic Church, yet it’s beleaguered with the Protestant proclivity of fracturing and mutation.

It was apparent to us that denominationalism was continuing to do to the Protestant movement exactly what the Reformers did to the Catholic Church. The incessant chipping away at the apostolic authority of Christ’s Church that took root in the Reformation had dwindled the Movement down to a club mentality. That helped to explain the disrespect of pastoral leadership and even rebellion against authority in the local churches of many denominations. Protest and division are in the genetic code of the movement. Because there is no secure center of authority or Tradition, the movement is more like a mutant cell dividing at will. To date there are some 33,000 Protestant denominations — yet, there is still one, holy, catholic, and apostolic Church.

Our list of questions kept growing: Surely there was a reason that billions of faithful believers around the world have remained faithful to the Catholic Church? Surely there was a reason that the Catholic Church has not altered its worship through history to stay relevant with each generation? Surely there was a reason why the papacy and the authority of the Church (Magisterium) stand as a paragon of biblical authority?

Looking for a good builder

Our doubts about the condition of the Protestant movement soon drove us to the threshold of the Catholic Church. We had been drawn to the biblical pattern of worship present in the Masses. We were compelled and comforted by what we came to discern about the stability of the apostolic authority present in the Magisterium. We were convicted and consoled by the holiness of the sacraments of the Faith. What we soon came to realize is that the security of historical and biblical stability could only be the result of what was protected in the mandate of Christ to Peter and the Apostles: “And so I say to you, you are Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church, and the gates of the netherworld shall not prevail against it” (Matthew 16:18).

Mark Shea provides an excellent analogy regarding the firm foundation of the Catholic Church. As you think of what Christ intended the Church to be, it is helpful to think of the three things you need to build a brick house: bricks, mortar, and trowel. Consider that the Catholic Church has a big enough pile of bricks to build a house. Catholic teaching says written Sacred Tradition (Scripture) is materially sufficient: all the bricks necessary to build its doctrines are there in Scripture. But there are also other building materials besides Scripture that have been handed down from the apostles and the early Church Fathers. The other building material is stored in the unwritten (and eventually written) Sacred Tradition (this is the mortar that holds the bricks of the written Tradition together in the right order and position). The third necessary building material is found in the Magisterium or teaching authority of the Church (this is the trowel in the hand of the Master Builder). Taken together, these three things are formally sufficient for knowing the revealed truth of God. You can build a Church that the gates of hell will not prevail against when you have all three materials to build with — bricks, mortar, trowel — Sacred Scriptures, Sacred Tradition, Sacred Authority. You can build a Church whose authority and tradition bear the integrity of the historical Church beginning in the New Testament and flourishing through the last 2,000 years.

A pivotal fact, often ignored by Protestantism, is that the ancient Church, the Church established by Jesus Christ through the Apostles, passed on the faith of the New Covenant with God. They passed it on through oral and written tradition with the authority Christ had established in them. This is the monumental difference in how the Catholic Church has been built as opposed to the Protestant movement.

The Protestant movement began with a protest against the authority of the Catholic Church and gradually turned into a movement of protest and innovation. In other words, there was no way that the universal (Catholic) Church established by Christ through His Apostles would simply start over because of some dissenting voices. So the Protestant movement innovated with what was already the universal Church that Christ ordained. However, the Protestant movement only borrowed the bricks of the Catholic Church. They had thrown out the mortar and the trowel in their attempts to reform what they thought was wrong with Christ’s Church.

Sola Scriptura

“Scripture alone” (“bricks” only) is a phrase used to describe how Protestants build their understanding of Christianity. Protestantism insists that only Scripture is authoritative for Christian faith and life. It denies the Catholic teaching (and historical reality) that Sacred Scripture is actually a written portion of a much wider, sacred, and authoritative Tradition, which includes other elements passed down orally and by patterns of behavior known as ritual or tradition. When an understanding of the Faith is based on bricks alone without the mortar and trowel of Sacred Tradition and Sacred Authority, a serious consideration needs to be addressed. If Scripture were the only legitimate source of Christian belief and practice, the early Christians who lived before the New Testament was written and circulated could not have lived the Faith.

Sola Scriptura also explains one aspect of why there are so many Protestant denominations. It explains why we had the keen awareness of how fluid authority is in the Protestant movement. If an individual or a group interprets Scripture by using some handpicked bricks to shape their theology, there are other bricks that are, by necessity, left in the collection of bricks we refer to as Holy Scripture. That is the nature of innovation. The various Protestant denominations (read: “innovations”) have taken the bricks they find authentic, fascinating, satisfying, consoling, and invented a form of church using their own ideas, methods, equipment, technology to attract people to their innovation. The manufactured mortar and trowel of the multifarious innovations lack the secure integrity of the Faith and so the innovations are endlessly changing according to each generation.

Finding the “New Testament Church”

During our examination of the tenets of our Protestant movement over the years of ministry we could never go deeper into history than the 1500s (ironically, our denomination was established in the late 1960s). Like most denominations and non-denominations, our history was short and the weight of the theology sparse. During our own examination of what we believed, we looked at the foundation of our denomination’s theology. A common theological foundation in the Evangelical tradition is that the denomination is like the “New Testament Church.” But we began wondering how we could know what the New Testament Church was like or what it taught about faith and worship. Often enough, the answer was, “the Bible.” But who taught us that the Bible is the authoritative Word of God? Who decided what books would be included in the Bible? We discovered that there were a lot more gospels and letters that weren’t included in the Bible. We knew that Paul had no New Testament when he wrote to the Thessalonian Christians, “So then, brethren, stand firm and hold to the traditions which you were taught by us, either by word of mouth or by letter” (2 Thessalonians 2:15; emphasis added).

Counting the Council of Jerusalem referred to in Acts 15 and Galatians 2, the Catholic Church has convened twenty-two Church Councils over the 2,000 years of history. The purpose of nearly every council was to keep the brick house intact by using the trowel of the Church of Christ to respond to heresies. The councils did that by keeping the mortar pure and the trowel sharp. Accounts of the Faith in the Triune God being held intact with the Sacred Authority entrusted to the early Church is evident beginning in the New Testament. Christianity is born from the saving action of the Triune God, but the Christian doctrine of the Trinity is not laid out explicitly in the New Testament. It was through controversies over how to best interpret difficult passages of Sacred Scripture that the Catholic Church councils formulated “how the mystery of the Blessed Trinity was revealed, how the Church articulates the doctrine of the Trinity, and how, by the divine missions of the Son and the Holy Spirit, God the Father fulfills the ‘plan of his loving goodness’ of creation, redemption, and sanctification” (CCC, 235). In other words, had Christ left us with a mandate to see Sacred Scripture as the sole authority of the Christian life, we would have been lost from the beginning in controversy about the nature of the Lord Himself.

Back to the issue of worship

In observing the extreme difference between worship in the Catholic Church and the Protestant movement, we assembled with worshipping believers every Sunday at the Cathedral of St. Joseph in Sioux Falls, South Dakota. The Holy Spirit drew us deeper into consideration of reconciling with the Catholic Church as we learned from the priests and observed the intellectual and theological integrity with which they served God. Worship embodied the integrity and the authenticity that we hungered and thirsted for — every word, every action, every moment of the Mass bore the full solemnity of the Christian Faith and that deeply impacted us.

We were now taking part in the biblically ordained purpose for worship of the Triune God that was fulfilled in the New Covenant! The conformity of the worship to the Scriptures is unmistakable. The Old Testament reveals the long history of God’s covenant with mankind through the Jewish nation. They were set apart from all nations by their worship and their conduct. The Messiah, Jesus Christ, fulfilled that covenant through His incarnation, death, and resurrection. He incarnated God’s ultimate desire for humanity — fidelity to and worship of our Creator. The disciples and early Church already knew how to worship God, but now they understood why they worshipped God, and God alone in the sacred tradition of the Old Covenant now New Covenant. The wholeness of their lives depended on their rightly ordered conduct. Their holiness also depended on the value they placed on rightly ordered worship of Almighty God, worship that was ordained by God through Moses.

The first believers in Christ were Jews, God’s chosen people; therefore, God continued His fulfillment of the Old Testament in the New Testament’s traditions of worship. These were not little “t” traditions that cultures embrace as they form; these are big “T” traditions in that they are the acceptable and ordained form of worship according to God’s point of view. That is Sacred Tradition. This answered yet another one of the persistent questions we had over the years as we witnessed the commercializing entertainment-driven “worship” many Protestant churches offer up every Sunday.

“All roads lead to Rome”

Our years of restlessness now manifested itself in the words St. Anselm used to describe the Christian life: “faith seeks understanding.” The questions about God and faith that had made us uneasy were finally finding their answers. Looking back over those thirty-four years of Protestant ministry, we could see how our questions about life and faith had changed and we found the answers we had previously accepted did not satisfy our desire for rest and peace. We had witnessed the accidental (sometimes deliberate) domestication of the Triune God and our worship of Him. The disturbing, catered, “God in a box” notion of church that we had witnessed over the decades had actually seeded a longing in our spirits for the divine Mystery of Faith.

The gravitas that accompanied these realizations had led us in the “long obedience in the same direction” toward the threshold of the Catholic Church. There was no turning back from the truth and the security that we had found in the writings of the early Church Fathers and from the Catechism of the Catholic Church. God was restoring our joy! And, He was doing this right in the midst of what was once so foreign — the Roman Catholic Church! We eagerly attended Mass each week, sometimes daily. The liturgy was welcomed and worshipful, and united us with the ancient Church as well as today’s global Church. The hungering darkness of our past gave way to Light!

During the Lenten season of 2014 we resolved to be reconciled with the Catholic Church! We voiced our desire to our priests and spiritual formation director. The Church’s apostolic authority revealed itself to us in an unexpected way. We came to understand the little idiom, “all roads lead to Rome” in a new way. Even though we were ready to run the aisles of our Catholic parish declaring our love and devotion to the Church, we had another road to walk. We were required to participate in a formation program to help us understand and experience the teachings and practices of the Catholic Church. That would take more time. But it was time well spent! The Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults follows the Sacred Tradition of culminating at the Easter Vigil that takes place on Holy Saturday, the evening before Easter Sunday.

Our parish used the series produced by the Augustine Institute — Symbolon: The Catholic Faith Explained series — as a part of the R.C.I.A. process. What a gift! The more we learned, the more our hunger and thirst was satisfied. We eagerly anticipated Easter 2015, when we would finally stand with thousands of believers around the world and in eternity and confess our faith in the Triune God and declare our loyalty to His Church. Each of our children and their families gathered around us to witness for the first time their parents’ sublime peace as we finally reconciled with the Catholic Church. Now that we are here standing on solid ground, the joy of the Lord has indeed returned. The security of the ancient Church, its Sacred Authority and its Sacred Tradition, is incredibly consoling. We have come to peace and rest in the universal Church — the Catholic Church — the true and reliable source of our Faith.

Our decision to reconcile with the Catholic Church has not been arbitrary or motivated by rebellion against the Protestant movement. It has actually been a lifelong conversion of mind and heart through the circuitous path of ministry in the Protestant movement. It is in the solid foundation of the Catholic Church that we discovered that the beauty, goodness, and truth of the Faith remains revered, and flourishes in our world today.

Jeff and Lois Heron

Jeff and Lois Heron married in 1978. Jeff received his B.A. in Pastoral Ministries from Indiana Wesleyan University (formerly Marion College) and his M.A. in Christian Counseling from George Fox University (formerly Western Evangelical Seminary). Jeff Heron served the Wesleyan denomination for thirty-four years from 1978 to 2012. Jeff and Lois served Wesleyan churches in Indiana, Michigan, Arizona and South Dakota. Jeff and Lois have three grown and married children and they are the blessed with twelve grandchildren all under the age of nine! Visit their blog at

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